summer long ago

I miss my life, I want it back. I thought I was moving forward and I haven't gone anywhere...I thought that then too but at least I was having fun...at least I was DOING something. anything.

I don't do anything anymore, I don't see anyone anymore. I haven't met anyone new or interesting. I haven't thought the way I did since I left.
I miss seeing the world the way I did, everything was...amazing..in its own way. And I loved it. And it loved me back.

Today I parked my car next to the park and walked the streets of downtown. Crisscross, up, down, sideways, up stairs, down alleys. Stopping to look at the people and the buildings and the mountains and the trees. I found some beautiful places. You wouldn't believe it if I told you.

While walking I pretended that I was new to SLC, that I had never been here before. Had never seen a SL,UT shirt, SLUG magazine, or been in the Heavy Metal Shop before. Looked at it in a completely new light. It was just what I needed. New perspective.

But I also had all my great memories of past downtown adventures. Summers spent away from my father's house deep in the city, trying to escape the oppressive and stressful situation I was in. Going all day without food just because we couldn't bare going back to his house. Talking to strangers at the library, hobos at the park, hippies at the drum circles, metal kids at the shops....We were just kids, we didn't know anything then.

It was good going back...just pretending if only for me that I wasn't myself. I was someone else with someone else's stresses and worries and friends and family. A whole story different from my own. Maybe even that I wasn't in Utah at all, maybe Phillie or DC?

Its funny how pretending to be someone different for a day helps me realize who I am.
I walked in silence, eyes constantly moving, drinking in every sight, mind going crazy...occasionally a single word would over flow out of my troubled mind onto my lips. It was usually something like "WOW" gazing up at a gorgeous building or some amazing sight I was sure no one else had ever seen in quite the same light or way that I was currently witnessing.

People hurrying on their way to their jobs or to school or to shop or maybe they were on their way to a fancy party? My mind would then wonder to their made-up fancy party with their made-up fancy friends. Until......

"SUBRRRIIIIIIIINNNNAAAAA!"
...dragging me out of my mind, finally surfacing for air.
I knew as soon as I heard the voice to whom it belonged to.

Rory Markham.

But what was my metal-head friend doing here? In downtown Salt Lake of all places?

Trying to find the Slayer concert he and his band-mates didn't have tickets for. duh.
Why didn't I think of that? Probably because it's crazy.
So what do I do? I run across the busy street and jump into their car as the line of cars start to move again.
My downtown adventure on a beautiful October falling day had ended with a bang and with its ending a new adventure began. That's life, that's how it works.
And I love it.








More later.
night.

-S

Inspire

I look at these pictures often, they just remind me of a better, cooler time. Where people were actually edgy and really just didn't give a fuck. These are the kind of people that I try everyday to model myself after. I mean since jr. high when everyone I would see I thought was a looser, but they thought that they were soooooo cool....because...why? They had their mom buy them a new outfit from Holister? Or...I don't even know...these kind of people I have never really understood. I have truly always just been an outcast. And it suits me well, I think. I don't mind that I have always been different I don't even mind that my kind of 'weirdness' is now trendy. hahaha. As long as you are what you want and do what you love I will pretty much like you.
Anywho...take a look at some the original grungy kids of our time. And you will fall in love with what they tried so hard to start.
















aaand The Clash :)
they were just so cute baha

also I pierced my septum in my bathroom two days ago. baha again.


-S

Today

Not much to say today...its friday! woooot!
Here is my look for the day:

hypehypehypehypehypehypehypehype please :)

I write checks

I know I ramble a lot about Uffie, I can't help it, she's just that awesome. I couldn't resist posting this video though, it's band new and fucking amazing.
Check it


Uffie - Difficult
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Rod(art)e

You may have heard of the sister fashion duo Rodarte? If not I recommend spending sometime with them. The sisters, Lauren and Kate Mulleavy started their line in 2005 with ten pieces and in the five years hence they have blown me out of the proverbial fashion water. This year's Spring 2010 line is no exception, the only way to describe it is amazing. It is very different from their past lines which shows how much potential they really have.

The dark earthy tones and Gothic looking dresses makes for a very unique and inspiring group of looks. I love how dark and almost evil looking many of the pieces are, and they are contrasted by the earthy tones and refugee-esk looks of the other half of the line. In either case these are tends that are perfect for any season, I hope to see some of these amazing pieces on the red carpet in the following months.

Here is the link to their website:
Rodarte














If anyone wants to buy me these that would be great, k thanks :)

-S

Pop My Glock

How can you not fall in love with these French hipsters? But besides the awesome two tone shots and animated sequences this video is probably one of my favorite of all time. Just watch and learn.

Igor + Andre, my love

So I have this problem, it's been going on for a long while now....I'M OBSESSED WITH DANNY J. ROBERTS! I love his art, his blog, his miiiiind! Seriously this guy is meant for me.. Not only are all his prints bad-ass but they are all fashion/bloggers inspired which is riight up my ally. I'm sure you've seen the line he recently did for Forever 21? Well his real art is that much better! Seriously check him out! He also just seems like a genuinely nice guy too, you could have a completely normal conversation with him, none of this "I'm better than you because I am an artist!" Which is always really annoying, I really cannot stand people like that. But that is all besides the point, I'll put the link to his blog below.

Igor + Andre
<3


Here are some of my favorite works of his :)


Chanel Girls
CLASSIC


Thanksgiving


PeoplePaper


Queen Lily


Alternative Transport


Camille and The Trees

These are just a few of many, many amazing pieces! I could post twenty or more...but I won't it will just bore you.

-S

Scooter Fiends

Today I found out that here in lil ole Utah we have a few major "Scooter Clubs". What is a Scoot Club you ask? Well let me tell you.
These Scoot Clubs like VaVaVaVroom, Brigham's Bees, and another one that I cannot remember the name of right now are all Clubs (for adults, not kids, yes when I hear 'club' I think of little kids too.) right here in Utah and Salt Lake Counties where a ton of people gather together in celebration and love for the motor scooter! Yes, like a Vespa! Who knew that there were so many scooter freaks in our small state?? It came as a surprise to me and that surprise quickly turned into confusion. Because we all see these scooter-ists, and Lord knows that when i see them i see them as lame-ass kids who didn't quite make the motorcycle standard of dude. Seriously i really think they are lame. But this article that i read today from last month's issue of SLUG Mag changed my mind. I no longer see them as half-ass wannabies but at dignified and respectable scooter enthusiasts! I think that anytime you can get that many people together in one place all for their love and passion for something with a HUGE perk to throw a kick-ass party after! Well that is a really great thing. I know look at scooter-ists differently. Thank you SLUG for opening my mind to the awesome-ness of scooter-atude.
If you wanna read the article here is the link its very good i recommend it for anyone and everyone.
Actually i really just like SLUG in general, ever since i discovered it when i was like....14? I have always had a special place in my hear for it. Its a shame its kinda hard to come by in Utah Valley I really feel that there a lot of people here that would really benefit from it. I also love City Weekly, lovelovelove it! hahah what is it about these localized texts that make me want to read them all the time? I'm not sure....maybe because its about my city, my state! That's....probably it.
Any who hope you enjoy :)
Also enjoy this,



-S

Ready to Uff

I find that these days I all I listen to are either girl bands or more electronic...its not a bad thing...its probably a good thing. Great thing?
Here is a video that I cannot get enough of!



I seriously am in love with Uffie, she is such a bad ass! And this video is tooooo good!



I mean look at this pic isn't just so hot but in a weird way. Call me lesbian but really look at her! hahah That probably sounds really weird....oh well don't care.





Maybe I'm just in love with the fact that i have this fantasy that she just lives her life continually fucked up and with a cig in her hand at every moment plus she makes bad ass tunes plus plus she lives in Paris. She is like the first and way better Ke$ha. Way way way better. Also she is really into fashion and her clothes are always very interesting. Deff I think that we would be best friends if we knew each other.

-S